at this point and time:

I am 30lbs more then i weighed this time last year
and about the same since the wedding
i figured i can either depressess myself, eat alot of bland tasteless food, cry alot, be hungry and MAYBE loose weight
or
i can eat what i like, go for walks, swim, whatever and enjoy life and learn how to deal with the extra weight that nobody notices but me anyways

i choose option b, makes for a much happier me