You're describing exactly the feeling I had when Phantom Menace came out. Because I was in boarding school and had an AP test that day, I couldn't see it opening day. That whole day for me was a mixture of euphoria, fear and a sort of desperate anxiousness. You have to understand -- the day before PM came out, I knew all of SW canon. All of it. I'd read every single book. I was an expert. And the day it came out, strangers on the street knew more than I did. I was so excited that there would be more but terrified that Lucas would yank the carpet out from under my feet.
And he did. That was pretty much the end of my SW obsession.
Does this surprise you? I'm guessing no.
I've gotten much better since then of just denying bits of canon I don't like. Xander's eye's fine! Wash is alive! Matrix II never happened! X3 is Wolverine's bad LSD trip! Lalalalala! Can't hear yooooooou!
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Date: 2006-07-07 11:00 pm (UTC)And he did. That was pretty much the end of my SW obsession.
Does this surprise you? I'm guessing no.
I've gotten much better since then of just denying bits of canon I don't like. Xander's eye's fine! Wash is alive! Matrix II never happened! X3 is Wolverine's bad LSD trip! Lalalalala! Can't hear yooooooou!