The mp3 debate continues...
Apr. 4th, 2005 04:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
trinityvixenWell, I know I said yesterday I'd chosen the iPod. I think, for convenience sake, that is the one I will go with. I would have been happy with either, and maybe that's the trouble. I would like to think there's some way to argue one was better for me than the other, that I could perhaps gain forgiveness for putting so many of you wonderful, beautiful, amazing, generous, thoughtful people (you know who you are) out. It was not my intention to make light of your gift, and as I said yesterday, I think of you all as having gotten me exactly what I wanted.
The trouble is that I'm conflicted. There are features I'll miss if I choose the iPod, and there are features I'll miss if I stick with the Creative. I'm almost certain I can still return either one, though I need to decide tonight so Carrie has time to mail it back and people know that I've settled. This is why I should never be given a choice, just like Dana-sister; if there are options, I'm going to exhaust them and then give up and then find something else entirely months down the road. I don't have that luxury here, and I feel I've stepped on people's feelings. I don't mean to preference one gift over another, though the thought that went into the one and the other are so hard to reconcile.
Please, don't think of me as choosing between you guys and my family. That's what I worry most about--that there'll be secret (or not so secret) resentment, hidden and buried though it might be. I worry that I'll make the wrong decision and have to live with it for years and years (because I can't possibly justify buying another mp3 player before then after all this), but more than that, I worry about the people who were so kind to me. This just isn't fair. I should keep both and love both and use both, but I can't. I can't justify that extravagant waste. If I had it to do all over again, this time with me in the know, I'd have told you all not to be so noble and generous because it makes me go a big rubbery one.
However, like BSD said, if this is the worst thing that happens to me for year 23 of my life, I should consider myself lucky. I do, I really do consider myself damned fucking lucky to have all of you for friends. It sets the bar intimidatingly high for you guys, and I'll endeavor to meet it.
In another delightfully tremendous note,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
saikogrrl has been extremely good and sweet and thoughtful and purchased a short while of paid LJ time. This is possibly the most fortuitous timing ever in addition to being a truly awesome gift idea. Not only have I pondered getting a paid account from time to time, but I have great need of one right now with which to post pictures...so I can finally get around to putting up a gallery from my sister's wedding. I've linked images off from other hosts before, but an LJ gallery would be nifty and easy.
There's also the awesomeness that issaikogrrl ability to make really fun icons (as evidenced by the one I'm using now) versus my inability to do more than shrink already made images (as evidenced by my default icon). She's making me more ones, God love her, and I plan to abuse the 50 icon limit with all the ones I'll have. I might even resurrect the Constantine one I used for a while (mostly for your benefit, ivy03, though you've already got bunches o'cooler ones).
That's all she wrote for now. Cheers to you all, you lovely people you.
The trouble is that I'm conflicted. There are features I'll miss if I choose the iPod, and there are features I'll miss if I stick with the Creative. I'm almost certain I can still return either one, though I need to decide tonight so Carrie has time to mail it back and people know that I've settled. This is why I should never be given a choice, just like Dana-sister; if there are options, I'm going to exhaust them and then give up and then find something else entirely months down the road. I don't have that luxury here, and I feel I've stepped on people's feelings. I don't mean to preference one gift over another, though the thought that went into the one and the other are so hard to reconcile.
Please, don't think of me as choosing between you guys and my family. That's what I worry most about--that there'll be secret (or not so secret) resentment, hidden and buried though it might be. I worry that I'll make the wrong decision and have to live with it for years and years (because I can't possibly justify buying another mp3 player before then after all this), but more than that, I worry about the people who were so kind to me. This just isn't fair. I should keep both and love both and use both, but I can't. I can't justify that extravagant waste. If I had it to do all over again, this time with me in the know, I'd have told you all not to be so noble and generous because it makes me go a big rubbery one.
However, like BSD said, if this is the worst thing that happens to me for year 23 of my life, I should consider myself lucky. I do, I really do consider myself damned fucking lucky to have all of you for friends. It sets the bar intimidatingly high for you guys, and I'll endeavor to meet it.
In another delightfully tremendous note,
saikogrrl has been extremely good and sweet and thoughtful and purchased a short while of paid LJ time. This is possibly the most fortuitous timing ever in addition to being a truly awesome gift idea. Not only have I pondered getting a paid account from time to time, but I have great need of one right now with which to post pictures...so I can finally get around to putting up a gallery from my sister's wedding. I've linked images off from other hosts before, but an LJ gallery would be nifty and easy.There's also the awesomeness that is
saikogrrl ability to make really fun icons (as evidenced by the one I'm using now) versus my inability to do more than shrink already made images (as evidenced by my default icon). She's making me more ones, God love her, and I plan to abuse the 50 icon limit with all the ones I'll have. I might even resurrect the Constantine one I used for a while (mostly for your benefit, ivy03, though you've already got bunches o'cooler ones). That's all she wrote for now. Cheers to you all, you lovely people you.
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Date: 2005-04-05 12:19 am (UTC)actually i think that the standard paid account comes with 15 at first... you can buy extra icon space for a few bucks tho :)
*gets to work making those icons*
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Date: 2005-04-05 06:22 am (UTC)oooohhh feel the envy
*drool*
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Date: 2005-04-05 06:42 am (UTC)